One Step Away....

Today happened to be one of the best days I've had...I think ever.

Woke up, feeling good. Feeling like getting something done. I took a look around to see what I could do, and I realized the back patio and the driveway need to be powerwashed in the worst way. I mean it was the prettiest shade of green you've ever seen.

So I get the old powerwasher going and get to work. Back patio was first. It took about an hour and a half, and three tanks of gas, but it was fun work. Active, mindless work. The kind I like. Work I can do while getting lost in my thoughts.

I kept waiting for my back to protest, but it never did. I must've lost enough weight to relieve it of some stress. This cheered me up quite a bit....if I could even cheer up any more. I didn't have to take any painkillers, and was hopping all over the place all day. Neighbours have to think I'm insane. I jumped up and down the stairs and a few times and started laughing because nothing broke. It felt GREAT. I feel I'm in the best shape of my life.

So I move the washer to the driveway, and realize that it is a beautiful day. The kind that makes you stop and just take it all in. I went up to the porch, sat in the swing, and just looked at the pretty. That moment... it was one step away from perfect. The slight creak of the swing, the cool breeze, the incredible view. One more thing and the world would explode, because it couldn't react to how I would've felt.

This frame of mind I'm in, the way I feel right now. I feel I can do anything. I've wracked my brain to try and remember ever feeling like this, and honestly, I can't. After all these years of shit, it's like the clouds have finally parted and the sun's starting to peek through. Everything is bright.

Things are looking better for my family too. Misty finally, FINALLY, got a lawyer who has taken her case, and news from the oil is expected at any time now (have to get Dad to call them again).

The future looks so bright right now. Could this really be the end of that horrible chapter?